The Holiday Spirit...

First off.... MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY 2009!!! =)

I can honestly say that I was not feeling the holiday spirit this year. It may have been stress or just alot of busy-iness. I typically buy all my gifts a month before hand and I barely finished on Sunday. So its just been so-so.

BUT last night I was home wrapping presents and writing out cards, etc. and I started feeling really JOLLY! Seriously its about time considering Christmas is this Thursday!! I was sitting on my new rug ($35 from Big Lots!! Can't beat that!!) and did my gift wrapping and jammin out to some good holiday tunes.

So today.. I am offically in the holiday spirit. I'm excited to share this with my family and friends. This is going to be a very busy week, but full of fun and happiness! I can't wait...

Looking forward to:
-HOT POT with the Fam Bam
-Presents!
-Our long over due homie Potluck!
-Dim Sum with my lovelies
-Going to SF to see my fave Koreans. haha
-Spending time with those I love most.

Check out the new rug (it is olive green with a brownish beige mix)!!! Secretly.... I think it was the rug that brought me back my holiday spirits. hhaha =P I can't deny it... haha.

It's COLD.

Hmm.. I haven't blogged for a good 2 months now...

UPDATE:
-Got my Roland Print Cut 54" YEAH!
-C45 Contractor Qualifier.... almost got my own license
-New addition to the fam bam TOFU!
-Visited SoCal and had great reunions in October
-Soul Searching & Realizations

















Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. Be thankful, grateful, and loveful.

True Happiness is here.

I haven't felt that feeling of true happiness in so long. This week overall has been great. I feel so gooood. Its that happy feeling you get that is all natural and it feels like a light breeze is brushing against you. The feeling is so intense.

Why am I so happy?? Well first off, the Contractors State License Board accepted my application to be an Electrical Sign Contractor and I have a test date in mid October! This means I am one step closer to becoming a contractor in California! Please please let me pass that exam!! If I pass the exam, I will feel so complete! Its been two years and its finally here... A short term goal finally acheived... So for the next few weeks I will be studying more intensely than ever. Usually I dont enjoy studying, but in this situation I am honored to.

I got finger printed/live scan today. It was $69 bucks for a 10 minute service, which I think is ridiculous, but its okay... After that I went to PetSmart to buy some medicine and dog food for this dog my dad found. This poor dog, un-named yet, is so skinny and fragile. So our family now has a new addition. I think my youngest sister is so excited about this too. I am happy for her. =) She has been wanting me to get her a dog in forever!

Family wise, I think it is looking up. There have been issues here and there, but overall I am trying to see it in a positive light. I know that amongst all the struggles, we shall overcome!! I have learned to be alot more patient and to just simply be grateful for all the things I do have in my life.

So... I hope this feeling of true happiness follows me on my journey in this crazy twilight zone we call "life".

<3

Sunday Thought

You gotta live your life to the fullest. Be grateful and content. Appreciate every moment, you never know when it may be your last. May prosperity and hope be with Travis Barker and DJ AM (Adam Goldstein). 4 killed in the plane crash and 2 (Barker, AM) in critical condition. How unfortunate.... :( Let our hopes and prayers be with them. RIP to the others who did not make it.............

This Morning

I woke up this morning feeling kinda sad, but I feel better now that the day has begun. I am here at work, ready to take on this new work week. I just bought some sweet tea from McDonald's and that stuff is soooo SWEET. I couldn't drink anymore, I should have just gotten coffee :P

This weekend should be a nice one. With some close friends coming over and Second Saturday art walk, it should be a nice relaxing weekend. I think I am going to check out that Obama Dance Party fundraiser. OBAMA 2008 all the way!! and....Who knows what Sunday will bring? hehe.

Anyways, on September 22, Heroes Season 3 Premiere is finally here! It took forever and a day! I'm so excited. I love that show!! Unfortunately on September 29, I have a Wisdom teeth extraction. Ahh..! I guess they are only taking two out, so it shouldn't be too bad. Yeah right! Chipmunk face in full effect!

TGIF!

Yay it's Friday! :)

It is so strange, but I was physically not at work much this week. But I feel like I did a crap load of stuff. I was all over the place doing estimates, getting permits, paying bills. I handled some work at home too, I don't really mind it.. I think working from home rocks. I should get my own little home office space to get stuff done. Also, Lee is working for me now and this alleviates a lot of work stress that has been on my shoulders. He is going to be a great asset to the company and he is one of the best graphic designers I know! Now I can focus on one thing at a time and not overwhelm myself because I have help. Good help is so hard to find sometimes.

Yesterday was a crazy day, I didn't really make it out to work. I got a call from Susanne at like 6AM in the morning. I was definitely half asleep, but when she told me a taxi cab hit her while she was on her bike I woke right up! I then went over to her place to take some pictures of the injuries. Her ankle is all f*ed up and she is bruised all over. Luckily after we got her checked out at the ER, she is okay! She just has to let the body heal. Alot of vicodin and plenty rest.

Over I learned alot from Thurdays incident......always treasure your loved ones, city police suck big balls, becareful biking when cabs are nearby because they obviously are a danger, and if you get into an accident always always get their name, number, insurance, and get a police report right away!

Life is short. Live it long.

A new month, a new beginning?

Happy September! It was quite nice to finally get a three day weekend. I was able to spend some time with my family, but most of the time I was by myself collecting my thoughts.
These days have been lonely and gloomy. I hope this new month will bring brighter moments.

On Sunday I dropped my sisters off at the Fair. I was going to go inside, but the massive crowd of people scared me off. I was not in the mood to be around groups of people, I think I would have gone crazy. This is the first time I haven't gone to the fair in like eight years. :( Oh well... maybe next year.

So its officially a new month. Last month sucked so bad. This month is going to have to change or else I am going to break something! >:(

I should really try to focus on what I want, a good life goal. I remember wanting to work for MTV China. That would have been amazing, but I didn't fall through on that one. It kinda sucks that MTV doesn't really have a whole lot of videos on the actual station, but they do help the flow of music (may it be good or bad). I guess tv in general is an amazing thing. Now that I don't really have a tv, I just watch it online. Online episodes are free and a good way to go. Also Blockbuster works too. :p

I think what Oprah does is ultimately the best! I would want to be like her with the whole magazine, tv show, book club, humanitarian thing. I wouldn't want it to be ""me me" tho. She sells her "ORPAH", I sell... "MYLAN?" hahaha.. no thanks. I'd want that without the fame.

I will be pondering about my life goal now..........................................

Midweek Thoughts

Today is Wednesday and we have a 3-day weekend ahead. I plan to keep myself very busy this weekend so that I can get my mind off of all the negative aspects of life... I've been alone for many weekends now and I think my social butterfly is ready to release herself again.

I guess the goal of this weekend is to spend it with those I love. Maybe I'll have a potluck at my new place with some good company. I haven't really had anyone over yet. I guess that's what hibernation does to you, you tend to get totally disconnected from the world around you. NO MORE HERMIT MODE PLEASE.

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YAY! Passed the UL Inspection today =) This made me quite happy.

Also some random facts my inspector told me during his story rambles.... If you want to grow your own hot peppers use miracle grow and dead fish. And since its tomato season, watch out for more tomatoes on the road. If one gets in your way, run it over. Do not try to dodge the tomato, you may hurt yourself!

False Forecast...

“Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.”

After the Storm

"We've got this gift of love, but love is like a precious plant. You can't just accept it and leave it in the cupboard or just think it's going to get on by itself. You've got to keep watering it. You've got to really look after it and nurture it." -John Lennon

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart." -Helen Keller

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them." -Mother Teresa

Time to Start Blogging Again :)

Well... Life has been kickin' my butt lately. From work to family to love. I'm getting beat up emotionally in most aspects of my life. So I guess the best way to vent and express is to start writing in my journal once again. I tried to start up my Live Journal, but I only wrote like two entries. Hopefully I can keep this one going :)

During this time, I feel most alone and lost. I stay home, sleep, and think most of my time away. Many things that I once believed in are so far from my reach. I suppose I am on a roller coaster ride that wont end. One minute I feel a little better and the next I feel like a crazy person, and then I'll get very sad.... I hoped for 2008 to be a stronger and more brighter year, but so far it hasn't met my expectations. I guess I only have the second half to make this a reality.

Like I have been told time and time again, "what doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger." Ha! so many things are easier said than done. Isn't it funny how you know what you have to do, but when it comes to doing it, you do the total opposite. I hate that! Ugh.. makes you feel so inconsistent. This is especially true for bi polar Geminis like me. I feel like I am two persons trying to make one decision and never agreeing.

Honestly, it is the acceptance and the moving on part that is the most difficult. Its me vs. time right now. Whom shall win?

R.I.P. Bernie Mac & Isaac Hayes... You will be truly missed.