Time to Start Blogging Again :)

Well... Life has been kickin' my butt lately. From work to family to love. I'm getting beat up emotionally in most aspects of my life. So I guess the best way to vent and express is to start writing in my journal once again. I tried to start up my Live Journal, but I only wrote like two entries. Hopefully I can keep this one going :)

During this time, I feel most alone and lost. I stay home, sleep, and think most of my time away. Many things that I once believed in are so far from my reach. I suppose I am on a roller coaster ride that wont end. One minute I feel a little better and the next I feel like a crazy person, and then I'll get very sad.... I hoped for 2008 to be a stronger and more brighter year, but so far it hasn't met my expectations. I guess I only have the second half to make this a reality.

Like I have been told time and time again, "what doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger." Ha! so many things are easier said than done. Isn't it funny how you know what you have to do, but when it comes to doing it, you do the total opposite. I hate that! Ugh.. makes you feel so inconsistent. This is especially true for bi polar Geminis like me. I feel like I am two persons trying to make one decision and never agreeing.

Honestly, it is the acceptance and the moving on part that is the most difficult. Its me vs. time right now. Whom shall win?

R.I.P. Bernie Mac & Isaac Hayes... You will be truly missed.