Midweek Thoughts

Today is Wednesday and we have a 3-day weekend ahead. I plan to keep myself very busy this weekend so that I can get my mind off of all the negative aspects of life... I've been alone for many weekends now and I think my social butterfly is ready to release herself again.

I guess the goal of this weekend is to spend it with those I love. Maybe I'll have a potluck at my new place with some good company. I haven't really had anyone over yet. I guess that's what hibernation does to you, you tend to get totally disconnected from the world around you. NO MORE HERMIT MODE PLEASE.

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YAY! Passed the UL Inspection today =) This made me quite happy.

Also some random facts my inspector told me during his story rambles.... If you want to grow your own hot peppers use miracle grow and dead fish. And since its tomato season, watch out for more tomatoes on the road. If one gets in your way, run it over. Do not try to dodge the tomato, you may hurt yourself!

False Forecast...

“Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.”

After the Storm

"We've got this gift of love, but love is like a precious plant. You can't just accept it and leave it in the cupboard or just think it's going to get on by itself. You've got to keep watering it. You've got to really look after it and nurture it." -John Lennon

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart." -Helen Keller

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them." -Mother Teresa

Time to Start Blogging Again :)

Well... Life has been kickin' my butt lately. From work to family to love. I'm getting beat up emotionally in most aspects of my life. So I guess the best way to vent and express is to start writing in my journal once again. I tried to start up my Live Journal, but I only wrote like two entries. Hopefully I can keep this one going :)

During this time, I feel most alone and lost. I stay home, sleep, and think most of my time away. Many things that I once believed in are so far from my reach. I suppose I am on a roller coaster ride that wont end. One minute I feel a little better and the next I feel like a crazy person, and then I'll get very sad.... I hoped for 2008 to be a stronger and more brighter year, but so far it hasn't met my expectations. I guess I only have the second half to make this a reality.

Like I have been told time and time again, "what doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger." Ha! so many things are easier said than done. Isn't it funny how you know what you have to do, but when it comes to doing it, you do the total opposite. I hate that! Ugh.. makes you feel so inconsistent. This is especially true for bi polar Geminis like me. I feel like I am two persons trying to make one decision and never agreeing.

Honestly, it is the acceptance and the moving on part that is the most difficult. Its me vs. time right now. Whom shall win?

R.I.P. Bernie Mac & Isaac Hayes... You will be truly missed.